Metaphor

I am a proofread, amended manuscript. An altered copy of the undesirable original where history was unnecessarily edited: Delete this. Add that. I was broken down into parts, each line, each word, each letter declared this blue-eyed literary initiative all wrong. The authors claimed I was filled with mistakes: disconnected, superfluous, unstructured, fragmented. Each page […]

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Accepting my Unacceptance

I feel moody. I feel like nobody likes me. I feel fat. I feel ugly. I feel disgusting. I feel like saying, ”Physician heal thyself” because I tweet all kinds of positive and inspirational sayings and expressions on Twitter, and I believe them at the time, but later I feel so distant from what I […]

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Where I am From

I am from scattered I love you’s and sometimes hugs To frequent cursing and steady neglect To the occasionally thrown salt shaker aimed at my head I am from a scruffy man who smells like whiskey and drugs Where name calling “twit’ and “brat” are his least offense leaving boo-boo’s and ouch’s on a too-young heart. I am from the mother’s […]

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Just another label

The time since March I spent away from the blog was generally a happy time.  I finished school, obtained a job, and have spent the last four months enjoying my time at my work.  Apart from work, things are falling.  There are still issues around intimacy I can not escape, and every time I go […]

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Conversation with Sleeplessness

Hello, Sleeplessness, my old friend.  Care to join me in reflection? There is shame typing these words.  I feel embarrassed that I have not written since March.  There are things we do not talk about and would rather go without.  Cowardly, I know. These emotional, late nights make me reflective and pensive.  I was thinking […]

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