Surviving Myself

 Despite myself and sabotaging my own efforts, I keep surviving. It isn’t pretty, but I’m doing it. I read a post today from a regular blogger to whom I subscribe that reinforced her description of her blog. She related it was a pro-recovery blog, and so she was trying to keep everything positive in her […]

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“End this sweet madness, all it’s glorious sadness”

That’s from the song “Angel” by Sarah McLachlin Warning: I’ve lost my mind.  I can not be held responsible for the crap I spew out. I suppose since no one reads this crap anyway I can say what I want.  And what I say is purely none of your business, but I feel better when […]

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Scrooge It

All Santa has brought me so far is a fever blister.  Thanks, Santa. I wrote in  A Big Secret Wrapped in a Bow that I don’t celebrate the holidays.  Never have.   I thought I would be okay this holiday time, because I’m with family.  Tomorrow more family will come, and there will be a big […]

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grasping at air

there are f e w words. went through R.A.D. self defense simulations yesterday flashbacks    terror     crying 13 hours later still not okay still crying  still scared    still terrified need safe hugs   need peace    need for it all to go away need to cope   bad ideas in mind   need help   need to talk     but there are […]

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