The Bitch and the Blank

No news on the separation with Husband.  It hasn’t taken place yet.  It’s just one day at a time.  I don’t think I could live with myself if I left him.  The guilt would sweep me away.  I always wanted to be married for life.  What does it say about me that I vowed my […]

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I think my marriage to Husband is over.

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hoy me rompe el corazón

a little over a year ago i came face to face with one of my abusers. I wanted so badly for an apology. initially i received one, then he recanted. he claimed it didn’t happen. today my birth mother is going to see her family, including this abuser who is her brother.  I’m trying to […]

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Forget that. I need to numb out. I need to escape. I'm not fit for survival. I'm trapped. There's too much damage and I'm all by myself.

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Surviving Myself

 Despite myself and sabotaging my own efforts, I keep surviving. It isn’t pretty, but I’m doing it. I read a post today from a regular blogger to whom I subscribe that reinforced her description of her blog. She related it was a pro-recovery blog, and so she was trying to keep everything positive in her […]

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