It’s hard to express how I am feeling this evening because I frankly don’t know. I feel many things in my life are keeping me distracted that I am given the uncomfortable luxury of not having to grapple with my feelings or situation. It makes me feel unreal, for lack of a better word. I […]

I need help. I am completely overwhelmed and irrational. The phantom menace has been after me in my day and night dreams. I exceptionally need to run outside of my skin. Time is pulled apart from reality. Help. Help. Help. I can’t find the next breath. I choke on my desperation. There is an undercurrent […]

Highlights from my hell: • Anxious as hell. Possible reasons: I’ve become fearful of going to sleep again. OR I’m regreting eating dinner. I hate these feelings and it’s so late I don’t want to call anyone tonight. • Saw new dietician. She was as good as any dietician can be for telling you to […]

I wanted to begin by addressing some things Ivory wrote in her comment: You are stuck, obviously. I don’t want to sound harsh, but here is some reality that I want to share, hoping it will help get you jump-started and moving forward. . . . So, my advise to you is to close your […]