So here i am in the backwoods of Tennessee. i used to live here many years ago, in between the many therapists i’ve managed to accrue and discard along the way. it’s nice to be back, but i still will be anxious to leave after the holidays. we’ve brought our dogs with us. Miserable! i […]

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Blog about it, he says. if it were only that easy. it has to be easier than discussing it in his office. there’s a major trust factor here and i’m getting angrier by the moment. the violence is eating me alive. i will dominate. i feel fat. ate something unwanted and can’t escape the anxiety. […]

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will this be the one? when i summon the courage it prostrate my strength on the edge of infinity. i spent time reading other blogs and processing what was said. it’s so hard to know if they really feel the happy b.s. they deal out or if they are as agonized on the inside as […]

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play time powered by ODEO and what do i say once the gag has been removed, at least partially removed… what a frightful, eventful, boring day. pieces belong to me, others covet and protect their moments of the day. i wish they would all just disappear, me as well. do i care of the trouble […]

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