I don’t know what to say or how the last twenty-four hours have been. I know we’re in deep and will rely on song lyrics to say what we might say if only we could. Anything bold or in italics is our own and does not beling to the songwriter.

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Spend all your time waiting for a break that would make it okay.
There’s always some reason to feel not good enough.
And it’s hard at the end of the day.

Let me be empty, and weightless and maybe I’ll find some peace tonight.

It don’t make no difference, escaping one last turn
It’s easier to believe.

Sarah McLachlin

Fed up with my destinty
This place of no return
Think I”ll take another day
And slowly watch it burn
Doesn’t really matter how the time goes bye
(Amanda Marshall)

It always ends in the sorrowest of goodbyes.

You’re a mystery
Always running wild
Like a child without a home

You’re such a secret
Misty eyed and shady
You got the best of me
You’re bringing on the heartbreak.

Hard to see the life inside
Wane as the days went by
Trying to preserve each word
He murmured in my ear
Watch part of my life disappear
(Mariah Carey)

I’m scared and I’m alone…
I’m ashamed
And I need for someone to know

Will anyone get close to me?
I’m damaged as I’m sure you know.
There’s mending for my soul
An ending to this fear
Forgiveness for a man who was stronger
I was just a little girl, but i can’t go back
I can’t go back.
(Plumb)

Only night will ever know
Why the heavens never show …
Night has brought to those who sleep
Only dreams they cannot keep
I have legends in the deep
Paint the sky with stars
(Enya)

All of my life
I’ve been waitin’ in the rain
I’ve been waiting for a feeling…
that never, ever came
It feels so close, but always disappears….
and I’m left dying with unused years
(Quarterflash)

I woke up late
Guess I’m never really early
I hesitate
Only to fail
I get so tired
Of procrastinating
I need a change

I can’t pretend
That I’m fine
I get so ill
Crazy, agitated
When I’m not really dying
(Plumb)

I don’t wanna talk about things we’ve gone through,
though it’s hurting me,
now it’s history.
I’ve played all my cards and that’s what you’ve done too,
nothing more to say, no more ace to play.
The winner takes it all,
the loser standing small
beside the victory,
that’s her destiny.
The winner takes it all,
the loser has to fall,
it’s simple and it’s plain,
why should I complain.
(ABBA)

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much to deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard
(Sarah McLachlan)

everything you think you know baby is wrong
it´s all over but the crying
fade to black I´m sick of trying
took too much and now I´m done
it´s all over but the crying
(Garbage)

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase
(Evanescence)

Solid wood will rot
If you don’t keep it from the rain
We were surprised when we found out
That love feels just like pain
(Ks choice)

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you’ll never know me
Every day It’s as if I play a part
Now I see If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don’t know?
Must I pretend that I’m
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
(Christina Augilera)

Again
It seems we meet
In the spaces
In between
We always say
It won’t take long
But something’s always wrong
(Toad the Wet Sprocket)

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I’ve come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

“Fools” said I,”You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you.”
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence
(Simon and Garfunkel)

What’ll I do
When you are far away
and I am blue?
What’ll I do?

What’ll I do
when I am wondering how
you feel just now?
What’ll I do?

What’ll I do
with just a photograph
to tell my troubles to?
When I’m alone
with only dreams of you
that won’t come true,
what’ll I do?
(Judy Garland)

Gloomy is sunday,
With shadows I spend it all
My heart and I
Have decided to end it all
Soon there’ll be candles
And prayers that are said I know
But let them not weep
Let them know that I’m glad to go
(Sarah MacLachlan)

My voice and my thoughts have been taken refuge. These songs are the only thing that comes close to anything I might feel.

Forever…