Safety at a premium

In one of my writing courses in college to be an English teacher, we were taught not to wait until we had something to say or a topic on our mind in order to write. We were instructed to write to find out what to write about. Given the unexplained rampant panic burrowing in my […]

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On the Hunt

Why is this so hard? I’m on the hunt down for a new psychiatrist, and my search is not going so well. One option would be to see the psychiatrist I had prior to my hospitalization, but I fired him due to stupidity and complacency on his part. Another option would be to see the […]

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Hunger games

Read the Hunger Games series? It’s pretty good, though has nothing to do with eating disorders like I thought it did. I hear the clock in my living room ticking and tocking. The ticks remind me it’s dinner time, as if I needed the reminder. I don’t. I’m painfully aware that it’s time to eat. […]

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Remember me?

There’s not much to say, or maybe I’m just too tired to say it all, but since it’s been a while I thought I would provide you readers with an update. I got out of the hospital Thursday. I begged and pleaded to get out. I went in at my treatment team’s recommendation and my […]

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A serious face ends up in one place

Trigger Warning for talk of intimacy. I can’t catch my breath, I’ve been crying so hard. I can’t seem to stop. The flood gates opened at work today, and now at home. And it hurts so bad. I work in a major department store as a cosmetics floater; I fill in for the regular employees […]

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