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THE NOT-SO BIG REVEAL OUT OF HIDING!

Always have to start with Maybelline.  She’s the beginning and the end of my world. Today sucks.  I hate today.  I feel depressed because I’m fat.  I am having some distressing gastrointestinal issues going on, and they are wreaking havoc on my body and making me feel fat . . . . which in turn makes me depressed.  So I’ve been hiding in my apartment all day. So I thought of one thing that might make me feel better today which is to stop hiding behind an anonymous screen and reveal my picture and identity.  I’ve been thinking about revealing …

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WEDNESDAY WISDOM – VOL 1

Norman Cousins (1912 – 1990) This is a quote from Norman Cousins (1912 – 1990) who was an American journalist and editor in chief of the Saturday Review for over 35 years.  He was known for his quotes on life, death, laughter, and health.    When we think about loss, most times our minds go to people we have lost in death.  But Cousins said losing someone wasn’t the greatest loss of all; he posited that the death of what lies inside us while we yet live is the greatest loss. For me, I thought about things that I have …

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ARE YOU READY FOR THE BIG CHANGES?!!

Maybelline loves this heated plush throw I bought, and she has been hunkered down in my arms to share it with me. Winds of Change I’ve decided to make some changes to the blog.  First off, every Monday will be considered “Music Monday”, and I will give three songs that I feel have some commentary on recovery.  I will draw from all types of music, country, rap, R & B, pop; nothing is off limits.  I will also add why I chose that song and why it’s relavant to my recovery at that time.  It’s my hope that you will …

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Tales from the visits with Mother-In-Law

I went out of town for a few days.  Not a vacation.  More like looking after recently widowed Mother-In-Law.  I love her dearly, but she came back with me for a week, and I’m already nervous.  My dissociation has heightened to an unmeasurable degree.  I don’t play nicely with others, and I don’t want to share my apartment with her.  I couldn’t even begin to write until I heavily medicated myself and put myself into a sleep. I don’t think it’s Mother-In-Law.  I think my new apartment has been created as a place of comfort, and I don’t even like …

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More than just another race

Tomorrow I run the Peachtree Road Race, the world’s largest 10k, and, frankly, I am terrified.  Wouldn’t you be?  Look at all those people! I’m not scared of the 6.2 miles; I’m scared of the unknown.  Even though I’ve read all the Atlanta Track Club e-mails, studied the start and finish maps, examined photos of previous races, rode the MARTA system, and did a practice run on the course, I still have no idea what I’m doing or what to expect.    Six months ago, my fear of the unknown would have precluded me from signing up for the race.  …

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Empty words = pink hair

We’ve been working on the piece for our writing class at the university. this class is on how to teach writing to adolescents and high schoolers; however, we have to go through the writing process ourselves so we can empathize with the road blocks and issues our students will face when they produce text. The semester just started two weeks ago and already we are panicking. We get certain accommodations but we still have to do the work. The piece we had to produce this week is called “I remember”…not an easy piece for anyone with a dissociative disorder. We …

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