Failure lurks around these pages. That’s right. I am a failure, a fat failure. I didn’t follow the meal plan today that Dietician prescribed for me last night and I agreed to. I’ve skipped dinner and evening snack. I was hoping for a new start by seeing the Dietician but the eating disorder behavior really […]
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Lunatic sound off – BEWARE
Warning. You are about to enter a pity party with some profane language mixed in, self directed anger, and unapologetic repetition of content. If you don’t want to get fucked up like we are and feel bad about yourself and hate yourself as much as we do, you might want to go where normal people […]
Read MoreCloudy with a Chance of Hatefullness
I don’t know what to say, but my heart is so heavy I feel like I must say something, anything. We had a session with Therapist today. They seem to get harder each time. An impression of sadness has followed us around our portion of the world since we left his office. The eleven year […]
Read MoreHome of the apathetic and tired
I’m tired. It’s more than not getting enough sleep or the tired you feel after a long day of work. I’m tired to the core of my being. I think my brain has stopped working. My body is lethargic and craves rest. I feel so negative. Every time I write it’s always about some crisis […]
Read MoreThe beast
On a housekeeping note, I want to thank Paul, cbtish, Shades of Ivory, and Grace for their comments. I know I haven’t responded to them and for that I’m sorry. Your support and insight means a lot. It’s been a long, hard, bad day. I am restless and feel like I’m going out of my […]
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