Lady Lazarus

I don’t know what I am tonight . . . or who I am. Sounds ambiguous. Good. “I have done it again, each year in every ten I manage it — Soon, soon the flesh The grave cave ate will be At home on me And I a smiling woman. I am only thirty. And […]

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Vegetarianism and eating disorders

Vegetarianism and eating disorders 1

I was asked by Dietician recently why I became a vegetarian. I gave her the standard “so I will feel better” and “I’m against animal cruelty” (which I am) answers. But after thinking about it, I know being a vegetarian has to do more with my eating disorder and less to do with animals. I […]

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Oh, no! She didn’t!!

Oh, no! She didn't!! 10

It can happen so quickly. One comment can shoot you right down out of the sky. That happened to me today at the gym. I was down stairs lifting weights, feeling pretty good, and a woman that I see there on a regular basis came up to me and proceeds to tell me that, according […]

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Make way! New thoughts coming through

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately about how much do I want to get better. I’ve been feeling that as much time as we’ve put in therapy we should be further along in the process than we are now. I’ve done fairly well at stopping some of those self-destructive behaviors that used to […]

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Disapeared

I’ve been thinking all day of what to write and I come up with nothing. So here are some bullet points to highlight where we are at this moment in time.• Husband and I are out of town visiting his parents. While I love the in-laws and they are good to me, I’m really stressed […]

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