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I’ve started this post a thousand times and have deleted every word that I typed. I just can’t formulate the right words or the right thought for that matter. There’s so much “quiet” noise inside my head that sanity gets drowned out. For two days I was feeling better. The switches were fewer; I didn’t […]
Read MoreI am beside myself. I’m at a real loss for words. I’m not going to turn this into a blog on eating disorders, but since it’s so much a part of my recovery I have to include the topic as we document our journey and recovery. Sometimes it takes my breath away. I was fine […]
Read MoreI woke up to myself this morning. I felt unreal but more like my real self than I had in days. I quickly did a backwards inventory of Monday, Sunday, Saturday, and Friday. I couldn’t find myself in any of those days. I scurried around the house looking for traces of my existence over the […]
Read MoreThank you to everyone for their comments. They are part of what’s keeping me going right now. This has been a bad weekend for us. It didn’t start out bad on Friday, but something, I can’t remember what now, kept us from working out. If I don’t work out then my meal plan is screwed […]
Read MoreFailure lurks around these pages. That’s right. I am a failure, a fat failure. I didn’t follow the meal plan today that Dietician prescribed for me last night and I agreed to. I’ve skipped dinner and evening snack. I was hoping for a new start by seeing the Dietician but the eating disorder behavior really […]
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