GETTING BETTER: THE CONUDRUM

GETTING BETTER: THE CONUDRUM 1

      Maybelline learning to solve a puzzle for her treats.   Pieces Taken from Wednesday’s Journal Entry Guess I’ve occupied myself well enough today.  Most of the depression lingering in my soul is dissipating.  Did some cleaning today and cooking.  Breaded pork loin chops, sauteed cabbage, and mashed potatoes were made.  Wasn’t too […]

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WHAT DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY LOOK LIKE

WHAT DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY LOOK LIKE 5

Today I feel so depressed and anxious.  I’m having trouble just getting up off the couch.  I did water my plant and opened the windows for some fresh air, but I’m still in my pajamas and may stay in them all day.  I’ve already gone to McDonalds for a soda in my pajamas and house […]

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THE COUP: ILLEGAL SEIZURE OF POWER

THE COUP: ILLEGAL SEIZURE OF POWER 10

Maybelline sound asleep.  She loves her crate.  Makes her feel safe and secure. I don’t know if I can write this post.  I feel extremely dissociative at this very moment despite taking my medication. I don’t know why it’s important to write this, but last night’s experience was so bizarre, disruptive, and disturbing that I […]

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Safety is as Stupid Does

Safety is as Stupid Does 13

Maybelline taking a long nap after a walk. I feel uneasy and unsettled, and a lot has to do with our session with Therapist.  The clock revealed only 30 minutes had elapsed, so I must have lost time in there.  I remember talking about Husband’s violent behavior and about how others cope who don’t cut, […]

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AGE IS NOTHIN’ BUT A NUMBER

AGE IS NOTHIN' BUT A NUMBER 16

Mom, I’m out of peanut butter! I’m not a happy camper.  Plenty of reasons why.  I burned myself yesterday.  It’s only a bummer because it doesn’t hurt today.  I know what will. We sent a scathing email to Therapist last night.  I’d be nonplussed  if he didn’t tell me not to come back.  But he […]

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