Calling all negative thoughts

Worst class ever. I left my writing class crying to my professor, something I detest. I had to meet with him privately to give him paperwork on certain accomodations they make for me in school since I’m not very bright and things have to be repeated over and over again before I finally get it, […]

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Where are we now?

It’s been a while since the last blog. Phil, my father-in-law, had open heart surgery and most of the time was spent being exhausted and living at the hospital or handling the needs of the mother-in-law, Millie. Now we are back home and school has started. The anxiety stares me down as a new semester […]

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Black heart

I don’t know what to say. I guess the tears know it all. It’s one of those days where I just don’t feel well. I’m bothered by the shifts and the anxiety is there but I can’t put my finger on the source. Something is grieving and haunting me and I’m stupefied as to what […]

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No stress zone

It’s one of those times I know I should write but I don’t know what to say. I’m upset right now. It seems the holidays only bring bad fortune to me. Last year in December, my husband and I both had our cars stolen out of our driveway overnight. Our cars were never recovered and […]

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Coercive, domineering history

I am disgusted with myself. Repulsed. Horrified. I gave in. I knew the husband had been wanting sex; the signs were all over the place, just like his hands. He knows we don’t like it. He’s not stupid. He made a comment that I “as in we” don’t allow him to touch us anymore. It […]

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