I can’t let go of you or the pain. I hold on to each hurt to remind me that you once graced my life.
When my heart breaks and bleeds I remember how much you mean to me and how much I love you.
Do you think of me wherever you are? Do you remember how with love I would speak your name, and how we nuzzled our faces against each other just to be close? I hurt myself everyday so I will never forget.
Today I pet other dogs and thought of you. They were happy and gave me kisses like you used to do. I am ashamed of myself that they made me smile.
Please let the tears keep flowing. Please let me keep hurting. I won’t abandon you by being happy. I will protect each small and large ache and not let anyone talk me out of it.
Since you let go, I’ll let go, too. I don’t have far to go now to be gone completely.
I love you, I love you, I love you.