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Saw Therapist again. It was another wasted session where I refuted that I dissociate or have the diagnosis of Dissociative Identity Disorder. To complicate matters more for me, he never came out and said, “Yes, you do have D.I.D.” which gives me cause for hope and despair. If we don’t have D.I.D., then what is […]
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I’m going on record declaring this complete bull shit. —————————————————————————————– I don’t know what to say really. I don’t know what to feel either. Maybe I am really okay, and it didn’t hurt as badly as it seems. Or, maybe I’m covering up the greatest pain we’ve ever known throughout the gift of numbness. I’m […]
Read MoreIt’s not that easy. It’s not that easy. It’s not that easy. I will not make it this time. I am burrowing a hole for myself, digging my own grave. Only this time, people in my professional life are handing me the shovel and watching me sink. I’ve discovered my problem . . . at […]
Read MoreShe has returned . . . a former, archaic version of myself that I had ignorantly believed I would never need again. Her revival has not been so subtle, and she has reprised her role as the destructor of my life, the tamer of hope, and the inventor of all necessity to be alone. She […]
Read MoreThe time since March I spent away from the blog was generally a happy time. I finished school, obtained a job, and have spent the last four months enjoying my time at my work. Apart from work, things are falling. There are still issues around intimacy I can not escape, and every time I go […]
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