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I’ve been thinking all day of what to write and I come up with nothing. So here are some bullet points to highlight where we are at this moment in time.• Husband and I are out of town visiting his parents. While I love the in-laws and they are good to me, I’m really stressed […]
Read MoreHad another session with Dietician. Why do I let it torture me so? The session just sucks the wind out of my sails, sucks out the life and makes me a ghost. I hate living in this body with everyone else. I hate feeling dirty and unclean. I hate that I can’t get off the […]
Read MoreThank you to everyone for their comments. They are part of what’s keeping me going right now. This has been a bad weekend for us. It didn’t start out bad on Friday, but something, I can’t remember what now, kept us from working out. If I don’t work out then my meal plan is screwed […]
Read MoreFailure lurks around these pages. That’s right. I am a failure, a fat failure. I didn’t follow the meal plan today that Dietician prescribed for me last night and I agreed to. I’ve skipped dinner and evening snack. I was hoping for a new start by seeing the Dietician but the eating disorder behavior really […]
Read MoreI’ve still got it, but I don’t want it. I purged tonight, and it was easy. Too easy. The last couple of times I purged it was difficult. I had to use all the little tricks I’ve learned along the way to make my food come up. It left my throat raw and my stomach […]
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