8th world wonder

I’m the 8th world wonder. No one can figure me out. I defy explanation. I’m either immersed in anorexia or burning my arm off. I’ve gained weight. I can see it, I can feel it, I can sense it, and I detest myself for it. Burning is a way of cleansing myself from my badness. […]

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Happy graduation day

Yes, on Friday I graduated…the hospitalization program that is. I guess I’m cured, Forevermore I will never want to kill myself, burn myself, throw up my food, hide my food, restrict my food, dissociate, become a completely different woman, or deign the being of my existence. So I’ve graduated. I was hoping for some words […]

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Look who’s taking risks.

I took two risks today. I was sitting in A.N.A.D. (Anorexia Nervosa and Associated Disorders.) After the meeting began and the silence was deafening, I broke the silence and offered up what I am struggling with. As I tweeted earlier today, I binged and purged this morning. So one of the risks I took was […]

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Where’s Missing In Sight?

I don’t know what to write. I’ve neglected my blog but not because I want to. I just don’t know what is happening with me. To say my head is chaotic is an understatement. Well, I guess I will start with the fact that insurance has me all but declared cure and has put me […]

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Welcome to the party

I had decided not to write, and the words just weren’t in me. But I can not be silent for my own sake. My heart hurts. My soul aches and I can’t do a damn thing about it. I’m stressed beyond tolerance; I’m broken down inside. I don’t know how much more I can take. […]

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