Mary, Mary

I’m feeling quite sad. I found out my friend, Mary, lost her battle with Anorexia and passed away. Mary and I were good friends in treatment. Mary was a little naughty in the hospital and was not allowed to be away from the nurse’s station, so she always asked me to join her at the […]

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The Resurrection of Anger

Today has been a different day for me. While I’m normally stoic and unemotional, today I’ve cried more than usual. I’m sure it’s no coincidence that my emotions have been a little sensitive since I’ve had one of the perpetrators on my mind today. In fact, the image of the closet I used to hide […]

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Cloudy with a Chance of Hatefullness

I don’t know what to say, but my heart is so heavy I feel like I must say something, anything. We had a session with Therapist today. They seem to get harder each time. An impression of sadness has followed us around our portion of the world since we left his office. The eleven year […]

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Home of the apathetic and tired

I’m tired. It’s more than not getting enough sleep or the tired you feel after a long day of work. I’m tired to the core of my being. I think my brain has stopped working. My body is lethargic and craves rest. I feel so negative. Every time I write it’s always about some crisis […]

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New quote added

As a matter of business: I added a new quote that inspires me and gets me thinking about recovery. You don’t get anything clean without getting something else dirty. – Cecil Baxter I added that quote to my favorites because it reminds me that I have to get dirty by digging into the dark, dirty […]

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