Disturbia

I find it disturbing and disruptive. The people behind my eyes are active and I feel pressure in my head. Does anyone else get that way when the switching is intense? They switch back and forth, never landing on a single personality. I’m switching as I write this. They chase my thoughts away and never […]

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I can probably thing of one second of my life where I felt free, not tied down by the rules and laws of whatever vice I am about to give to. I look at the girls in my dining hall at school and none “look” like they cut, burn, or have an eating disorder. I’m […]

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Missing In Action

I know I’ve been gone for a while. Things have not been okay but I will spare you the spilt milk and the sob sorry. I was released from the partial hospiltization back in May, I think. My intentions were/are to get a job and go back to school. I couldn’t cope with applying for […]

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Anger times infinity

Friedrich Nietzsche said, “Nothing on earth consumes a man more quickly than the passion of resentment.” This was the quote for my daily mediation today. I have to admit I’ve fallen prey to resenting the majority of my life and those who’ve played a role in its demise. It’s natural to resent being hurt, but […]

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Trip to Tenneessee

Trip to Tenneessee 1

Still writing from Tenneesee. We are a little crowded in the van, even with the two middle seats taken out. These are two faces only a mother could love, and I love them very, very much. On the other side of Twizzler and O. is our other god-daughter, C. She’s sleeping and drooling all over […]

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