Welcome back, Becca.

Blame it on my mental health. I’ve been thinking for a while about returning to my blog. I am sorry that this post is my initiation back into Missing In Sight. I kind of grew out of this blog for a while. It became something I didn’t want in the way my posts became more how-tos and more didactic about dissociative identity disorder. I don’t regret them, I just feel my journey has shifted, and it is time to return to sharing the more authentic and organic aspects of myself and the continued journey.

I can say for the state of myself right now that I might have gone crazy, at least it feels that way. I feel unstable and out of control. My thoughts are beyond me, my emotions are misnomers, my moods belong to others. I feel like I’m beneath the water, trying to reach the top, but unable. I’m not even treading water. I’m sinking in spectacular fashion. submission to cravings for self-harm, and more switching in my head. What brought it all on? The unknowing is worse than knowing.

I feel my creativity is waking up. Must be why I’m shutting down. Can’t I ever be creative without it driven by my dark places?

I made a video below. I just found a quote by Katie McGarry that inspired me, and thus, a video was born.

Until next time.