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Today has been a difficult day for us. In the region where we live, the students have already gone back to school, and all my teacher friends are posting their unabashed optimism and excitement for the new school year. I feel left out. I feel like a failure. I feel grossly incompetent. I still castigate […]
Read MoreIt’s been a few years since I’ve been on here. Don’t really know what I’ve been up to except teaching high school and going off to treatment. Tonight I was looking at the very first entry in an incomplete journal book, beginning date of 10-15-2008. I was in residential treatment at the time. There was […]
Read MoreIt’s not insignificant; it’s my life; it’s my mood. I thought I had made peace with my obsession, but my definition of self-respect, self-worth, and confidence is still determined by my weight. I only wear sweat pants so no one can see the shame layered on my hips and thighs. I don’t want to leave […]
Read MoreBut today, not so much. It’s challenging today, Evenings are the worst, and I don’t know what to do with myself. I feel I have hours to kill before bed, and I’m trying to do so without bingeing and purging. If I look at it honestly, I’m not using any of the coping skills in […]
Read MoreIn one of my writing courses in college to be an English teacher, we were taught not to wait until we had something to say or a topic on our mind in order to write. We were instructed to write to find out what to write about. Given the unexplained rampant panic burrowing in my […]
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