The beast

On a housekeeping note, I want to thank Paul, cbtish, Shades of Ivory, and Grace for their comments. I know I haven’t responded to them and for that I’m sorry. Your support and insight means a lot. It’s been a long, hard, bad day. I am restless and feel like I’m going out of my […]

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Preventing a fall.

I’m trying to keep a positive attitude today, but it turns out to be more challenging than with which I can cope. Today’s meditation hits home for me, and I’ve studied it as if there were an exam at the end of this post. The quote is by Thomas Fuller and he says, “A stumble […]

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Ramblings of a gone mind

I’m not okay. I’m feeling rather rabid and English. The words are coming from somewhere else. I don’t know what to do with myself. I know what I should do, but “shoulds” are woulds that can’t help themselves. I feel like Sarah McLachlin when she sang with the Perishers a song called “Pills.” She sang […]

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The benefit of the doubt

It’s been a rough twenty-four hours. I see my T. three times a week, and the days I don’t go in I don’t know what to do with myself. D. took the day off work yesterday to keep me company. The lonliness feels so pathological and morbid that I can’t take it. A deep hole […]

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Waking up to the dark

I don’t know what to write; I just feel I need to write something. There’s not much in here to inspire; just an account of where we’ve been physically and emotionally. I have no advice to give today, nor a response from a mediation I read. It’s just me, we, the bare bones of us. […]

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