8th world wonder

I’m the 8th world wonder. No one can figure me out. I defy explanation. I’m either immersed in anorexia or burning my arm off. I’ve gained weight. I can see it, I can feel it, I can sense it, and I detest myself for it. Burning is a way of cleansing myself from my badness. […]

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Ramblings of an unquiet mind

I’ve let my friends down. I’ve let myself down. I’ve let my members down. I can preach up and down the Mississippi River but none of it matters if I don’t head my own advice. The truth is I am non-compliant with my meal plan. Just my evening snack and breakfast is all I am […]

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Back from the looney bin!

Watch out world! We are back home. Yeah, me! We were inpatient for a little over two weeks. I must admit that it wasn’t as bad as I had predicted. The group of ladies I was with are phenomenal. We formed a bond so close that it will continue past our time in treatment. Any […]

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Checking in…checking out

I’m exhausted. It’s been a tumultuous weekend and I feel so dirty and unclean. Music is my salvation and is soothing and calming my soul as I type. Though I have a lot to say, I am going to catch up with other blogs and post comments. I’ll fill everybody in at a later point. […]

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Paint our secrets a different color

Hate days like this. We are so sad we don’t know where to begin. Don’t know what to do when we get like this. The inertia is so pronounced there is nothing to be done. Our heart is broken and visions of the past perform before my eyes. Our secrets percolate under an eating disorder. […]

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