The beast

On a housekeeping note, I want to thank Paul, cbtish, Shades of Ivory, and Grace for their comments. I know I haven’t responded to them and for that I’m sorry. Your support and insight means a lot. It’s been a long, hard, bad day. I am restless and feel like I’m going out of my […]

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From 0 to 60

It’s a painfully slow post. It’s been brewing for days but, understandably, never comes to fruition. For most of the week I’ve been blank. Blank as in blank. Lifeless. Disconnected. Empty. Deserted. Abandoned. Meaningless. When I tried to explain this to Therapist yesterday he didn’t get it. I grappled for words. I felt inside prison […]

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Hell hath no fury

I am not in the best of moods. I am very angry at myself. It was a whole weekend of being angry at myself. There is a picture I keep as my wallpaper on my computer of a time when Husband and I went to Charleston. In the picture I look very happy, big grin […]

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New quote added

As a matter of business: I added a new quote that inspires me and gets me thinking about recovery. You don’t get anything clean without getting something else dirty. – Cecil Baxter I added that quote to my favorites because it reminds me that I have to get dirty by digging into the dark, dirty […]

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Relationships

I’ve been mulling this topic over since the weekend and have been trying to figure out how to write a sanitized version of what took place.One of the many things we’ve learned with D.I.D. is just how hard relationships are to maintain. I’ve been married over ten years. In fact, Valentine’s Day marks 10 1/2 […]

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