Thanks for nothing

i really don’t know what will become of me. The anxiety is so so bad that i was so close to D. taking me to the medical hospital. i coulnd’t walk, the room was shaking, I wanted to jump out of my skin. And no matter what I did I coudln’t get better. Today, no […]

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You’re once, twice, three times a bitch

i feel sad. this is typical of therapists and anyone in the mental health field. I called my shrink yesterday because I was feeling horrible. I’m taking my meds as prescribed but the last four or five days I’ve dealt with the worst anxiety and panic attacks, especially on T/TR when we have our writing […]

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Someone like me.

today has not been good at all. and now, when i sit down to write about it and the feeling accompanying it, it vanishes. It’s Thursday, so there was work then school. I’m done. The anxiety of the day has killed me. I was not myself this morning. I was someone who was walking into […]

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History repeats itself

I truly believe my classes are killing me. This is one of the worse weekends I’ve had in ages. We are to write about three memories we have. Holy Hell! Give me a break. And we have to write before we write. I did everything I was asked. I did a continuum map. I journaled […]

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Sex,lies, and too much Info

Several kind people such as Rising Rainbow and Kahless have sent me comments. I treasure these comments deeply but don’t know how to respond to them as I see Rising Rainbows do. Please don’t think I’m ignoring you. I’m still navigating my way through the technology. I’m doing good to just link you. 😉 It […]

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