Where’s Missing In Sight?

I don’t know what to write. I’ve neglected my blog but not because I want to. I just don’t know what is happening with me. To say my head is chaotic is an understatement. Well, I guess I will start with the fact that insurance has me all but declared cure and has put me […]

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Welcome to the party

I had decided not to write, and the words just weren’t in me. But I can not be silent for my own sake. My heart hurts. My soul aches and I can’t do a damn thing about it. I’m stressed beyond tolerance; I’m broken down inside. I don’t know how much more I can take. […]

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Better than a Klonipin

I did it. I’m not proud. I can’t be left alone. I need a crazy-sitter. Yes, I binged and purged tonight. I was afraid it would happen, and it did. I should feel more ashamed of what I did, but to be honest, purging made me feel better than taking a Klonipin. Tonight is the […]

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“Sleep perchance to dream”

I love that quote from Hamlet b/c it is part of the soliloquy where he reveals his thoughts about suicide. Just think it’s poignant. As for me, it’s too early for bed, but an unatural urge for sleep has come over me. I know what it is: I have an alter that puts me to […]

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If we weren’t all crazy we’d just go insane.

That’s a quote by Jimmy Buffet. I’m not sure that I’m not crazy AND insane, or if they are even mutually exclusive. I’m so lost inside the mess and dissociation that cradles my life. Having Dissociative Identity Disorder is like having a broken mind. My thoughts are disorganized. I remember face but not names of […]

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