Loss for words….

but I’ll try anyway. I’m empty and blank inside and outside. I have no words to say. I’ve lost a big chunk of time today and have the new clothes and shoes show it. Someone else was out and bought us clothes. I just hate not being present. It’s been a while since I blogged. […]

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Will someone please look for me?

Indulge me. I have no words, feelings, or emotions, so I will have to ramble on and hope that some reaction to life is forthcoming. I feel stuck in this dead zone where I don’t have the option to live and I don’t have the right to die. It’s a pretty miserable condition. I worry […]

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Cooking up a big pot of amnesia..

I’m a little bit unsettled after seeing the movie Bride Wars. It wasn’t the movie itself that bothered me; it was that D. insisted I had taken our god-daughters already to see the movie. I went over it back and forth in my mind and felt adamant that I hadn’t seen the movie. Even as […]

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Sigh and sigh alone

Potential triggers: Read with caution. I hadn’t planned on posting today, but the urge hit me, so here we are. I’m exhausted physically and mentally. Still in PHP. I sigh because things aren’t going the way I want for my recovery. We’ve been doing well up till now when we are starting to be non-compliant. […]

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Excuse me! I know you how?

Not once, not twice, but three times today did somebody say they knew me and I have no recollection of them. This is quite a disconcerting feeling. Granted, all three ladies were in the same support group for eating disorders, and, according to the three amigos, they say they were all in treatment with me […]

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