grasping at air

there are f e w words. went through R.A.D. self defense simulations yesterday flashbacks    terror     crying 13 hours later still not okay still crying  still scared    still terrified need safe hugs   need peace    need for it all to go away need to cope   bad ideas in mind   need help   need to talk     but there are […]

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Got Apology?

A couple of weeks ago I posted here about contacting one of my abusers demanding an apology. After listening to everyone’s feedback, I decided it would not be in our best interest to instigate any type of contact with him. I didn’t think he would ever apologize, and I didn’t want to set myself up […]

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Tinkering on the edge of sanity

As I was lying in bed waiting for the elusive sleep to descend upon me last night I was thinking about how I relate to food and how eating it makes me feel. It’s been staring me in the face all this time but it wasn’t until last night that I fully recognized that my […]

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Avoiding

Pardon us while we wax philosophical. We are in the middle of a switch… It is dark in my room. I’ve succumbed to the internal pressure of my members to blog. It’s been a while since we blogged but no worries here. New insights have been gained and a new committal to therapy has taken […]

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Anger times infinity

Friedrich Nietzsche said, “Nothing on earth consumes a man more quickly than the passion of resentment.” This was the quote for my daily mediation today. I have to admit I’ve fallen prey to resenting the majority of my life and those who’ve played a role in its demise. It’s natural to resent being hurt, but […]

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