The benefit of the doubt

It’s been a rough twenty-four hours. I see my T. three times a week, and the days I don’t go in I don’t know what to do with myself. D. took the day off work yesterday to keep me company. The lonliness feels so pathological and morbid that I can’t take it. A deep hole […]

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Back in the saddle, again.

I forget without peeking exactly how long it’s been since I lasted posted. I was hoping to post while on holiday in Charleston but that didn’t happen. Charleston. They were the best of times. They were the worst of times. (C. Dickens for you.) It’s hard to remember chunks of hours out ot the days. […]

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Sounds of silence

I haven’t posted lately. I’ve been quiet. At least on the outside. Things are revving up on the inside. I haven’t posted because I have nothing to say. I’m reading everyone else’s post and wondering what the fuck is wrong with me. Why don’t I have anything to contribute? Why don’t I have anything special […]

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Help. I’ve fallen and I can’t get up.

It’s been a tough week. My depression has gotten worse and my powers of concentration have shot to hell. I haven’t been able to keep up with the blogs I subscribe to, nor have I been able to compose a new post of my own till now. I don’t have any pearls of wisdom or […]

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Anger times infinity

Friedrich Nietzsche said, “Nothing on earth consumes a man more quickly than the passion of resentment.” This was the quote for my daily mediation today. I have to admit I’ve fallen prey to resenting the majority of my life and those who’ve played a role in its demise. It’s natural to resent being hurt, but […]

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