I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad

I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad 1

I find it kind of funny. I find it kind of sad. The dreams in which I’m dying Are the best I’ve ever had. Gary Jules – Mad WorldThose lyrics are in my head as I contemplate this post. I find my situation disturbing. I wish it wasn’t happening. What does it say about me? […]

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Question Asked, Question Answered Part 2

Question Asked, Question Answered Part 2 14

Castor Girl asked a question of me in a post on May 8 regarding our loneliness and what was causing it. She asked, “Do you know what’s happened to you to make you feel so lonely?” Several events have taken place that explain the recent onset of loneliness. First, I started reading a book called […]

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Here’s your sign

Here's your sign 22

It happened again. Oh yes, it did! Let me set the scene for you. So I’ve had a pain in my back for 10.5, and, no, it’s not my husband. I have a herniated disc, L5 S1. So I get epidurals (ouch is right!) every six months or so. Well today I went to my […]

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“Altered” sleeping

"Altered" sleeping 29

I’m a sad, sad moon. I feel like I’m on the outside looking in at myself, watching me from far away. Today has been one big struggle. I’m surprised how the comment at the gym is continuing to plague me. I’m not brooding over yesterday’s comment. I’m not dwelling on what was said to me. […]

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Oh, no! She didn’t!!

Oh, no! She didn't!! 34

It can happen so quickly. One comment can shoot you right down out of the sky. That happened to me today at the gym. I was down stairs lifting weights, feeling pretty good, and a woman that I see there on a regular basis came up to me and proceeds to tell me that, according […]

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