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I had decided not to write, and the words just weren’t in me. But I can not be silent for my own sake. My heart hurts. My soul aches and I can’t do a damn thing about it. I’m stressed beyond tolerance; I’m broken down inside. I don’t know how much more I can take. […]
Read MoreI did it. I’m not proud. I can’t be left alone. I need a crazy-sitter. Yes, I binged and purged tonight. I was afraid it would happen, and it did. I should feel more ashamed of what I did, but to be honest, purging made me feel better than taking a Klonipin. Tonight is the […]
Read MoreI love that quote from Hamlet b/c it is part of the soliloquy where he reveals his thoughts about suicide. Just think it’s poignant. As for me, it’s too early for bed, but an unatural urge for sleep has come over me. I know what it is: I have an alter that puts me to […]
Read MoreI lied. I’ve actually purged four times today. I hate Sundays. There is no structure. D. is home and hovering and watching what I eat. I had the merciful luck that he went and worked outside in the yard. I ate just a little and up it came. It wasn’t like I was binging. I […]
Read MoreHate days like this. We are so sad we don’t know where to begin. Don’t know what to do when we get like this. The inertia is so pronounced there is nothing to be done. Our heart is broken and visions of the past perform before my eyes. Our secrets percolate under an eating disorder. […]
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