Sounds of silence

I haven’t posted lately. I’ve been quiet. At least on the outside. Things are revving up on the inside. I haven’t posted because I have nothing to say. I’m reading everyone else’s post and wondering what the fuck is wrong with me. Why don’t I have anything to contribute? Why don’t I have anything special […]

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Will someone please look for me?

Indulge me. I have no words, feelings, or emotions, so I will have to ramble on and hope that some reaction to life is forthcoming. I feel stuck in this dead zone where I don’t have the option to live and I don’t have the right to die. It’s a pretty miserable condition. I worry […]

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The Missing In Sight Theme

The Perishers, featuring Sarah McLauchlan One may think we’re alrightWe need pills to sleep at nightWe need lies to make it through the dayWe’re not okay One may think we’re doing fineBut if I had to lay it on the lineWe’re losing ground with every passing dayWe’re not okay That’s one thing I would neverThat’s […]

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I’m once, twice, three times a purger…

I lied. I’ve actually purged four times today. I hate Sundays. There is no structure. D. is home and hovering and watching what I eat. I had the merciful luck that he went and worked outside in the yard. I ate just a little and up it came. It wasn’t like I was binging. I […]

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Living and dying in 2 different worlds

The moonlight offers her condolences on such a dark night. How did she know? Why don’t more people know? If they did, would it matter? I haven’t posted lately for a couple of reasons. One, I’m tired of hearind my own complaining, whiny voice and the voices of others. Secondly, I havn’t been around for […]

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