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[convertkit form=5156465] Grief.  It can cause numbness, emptiness, shock, abandonment, depression, crying, exhaustion, confusion, and much more.  If such pain is brought on by grief, who would think of themselves as  lucky when they lose someone they dearly love?  But being lucky is the conclusion toward which I’m slowly reaching.  For almost a […]
Read MoreThings are quiet and subdued tonight. Though I feel the need to write, words scurry away. I can’t wrap my mind around what is happening to me. I listen to music; it is a salve to my soul. Music speaks to me and comforts me, and I need all the comfort I can obtain […]
Read MoreSaw Therapist again. It was another wasted session where I refuted that I dissociate or have the diagnosis of Dissociative Identity Disorder. To complicate matters more for me, he never came out and said, “Yes, you do have D.I.D.” which gives me cause for hope and despair. If we don’t have D.I.D., then what is […]
Read MoreI learned today that I can’t cry tears. I must not have been born with tear ducts. I know how silly that sounds but I also know I haven’t cried in months and I’m about due. I’m not ashamed to bawl my eyes out in front of others. I’m also not depressed to the point […]
Read MoreI lied. I’ve actually purged four times today. I hate Sundays. There is no structure. D. is home and hovering and watching what I eat. I had the merciful luck that he went and worked outside in the yard. I ate just a little and up it came. It wasn’t like I was binging. I […]
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